my mom for being a bitch on those days that she constantly makes me feel extremely low. my dad for always being sick and i hurt because i love him too much. and my best friend heidi because she's the most amazing person in the world. she makes me feel good about myself and i cry because she makes me so happy. i'm lame but she likes me for being lame so shut the fuck up and go touch yourself because that's what hana always says.

* note that i invented post it notes. the company 3M bought the idea from me and now i am making billions and billions of dollars. billions of dollars that i spend on porno magazines and websites that help promote nudity.

what she does when she is home alone: she prances around the house in her boy short undies and her tank top screaming along to those sexy sons of bitches the number twelve looks like you. then she tries to come up with her own food recipies in hopes that food network will hire her one day to do her own "cooking with so-so-sizzle" show so her already rich empire will make more money that she can bathe in.

*note that i like to run around my street naked screaming out "I AM YOUR GOD!" while hundreds of paid photographers photograph me making an ass of myself.

lynne came to pick me up this morning for school. we get on the highway and notice a guy driving behind us in a gold toyota camery. this guy is going awfully fast and starts honking his horn like crazy at us and we're going about 10 above speed limit so we don't know what this guy's problem is. he switches to the other lane and flicks us off so we flick him back off and all of a sudden he tries to ram his car into our car and we almost ended up in the ditch. he had a freaking kid in his back seat to, what a way to set an example.

my friends and i like to dress up in funky clothing, hangout in bathtubs and take pictures as we do so.

i love the changes in weather. it's been getting cold here in ithaca and i love it because i love to dress up for the weather. I've been making sure to dress upo nice and warm so i could keep myself healthy this year. but the stupid school still makes you go outside in the cold for gym class which is a load of crap. so here i am at home for the weekend with a stuffy nose. i swear to god i'm going to sneeze myself to death.

the last day of summer school was yesterday. i'm about to head off and take the regents exam (state final) and i haven't studied what so ever. i didn't study for yesterday's class final either. simple shiznit. i'm hoping to just wing it. studying doesn't exactly help me either.

karen came to my house later. we chilled for a bit then walked ouver to soparry's house and we all went on a walk and ended up at the mall. hung out had GREAT laughs watching karen make a fool of herself. she was all dancing singing and coming up with her own musical skits in the middle of teh mall while we watched her. i love that girl to death. then some more friends came over we went to the arcade and played time crisis. it's half past 8pm now and i'm home because lynne called me.

i got scared today. my sister and i went to get our car cleaned at the car wash. there was no point in a car wash veuase it was going to rain but it did need major vaccuming. so i see this guy in the car next to us kinda just watching. it was a little intimidating. then all of a sudden he walks over to me and says "come here" i stood there like "what the fukk does this guy want get away" i didn't say anything. then he goes "i just wanna say hi to you come here" since i didn't respond he came up to me and tried to shake my hand. then he saw my sister and tried to shake her hand. i looked at her really scared and spoted someting hard i could hit him with incase something happens. my sister was like "do you mind just leaving us alone. can't you see you're wasting my time. this vaccum is paid for by the amount of time i use and you're making me waste my money". so he went up to her face and was like "i'm not from around here. i'm just trying to say hi and be nice" i was really getting scared at this point. we just ignored him and he went back to his car. he came to the car wash for no reason and waved at me as he was driving by then as he was next to our car he stopped his car and tried to get my attention. i played cool then he just drove off. i was seriously ready to kick some as.s because i was soo scared he was gonna do something to me.

i just got home from watching the movie swat and i'd hate to say this but...IT WAS A DAMN GOOD MOVIE. it deserves 5 stars. fuc.k that it deserves five stars just for having colin farall in it. i don't want to give the movie away but all i can say is that sh.it happens and money makes people go to extremes. well before the movie i was playing time crisis three at the arcade agian. and damn i swear i just keep getting better and better. i played along side with my friend and she already reloaded her tokens 3 times while i was still on my first. then we bought our ticket after i died. i think i was on the last round so maybe tomorrow i'll go and actually beat the shiznit. i found a pair of spy kids 3D sunglasses put them on and almost went blind. luckly my friend had her camera phone with her and she took a picture of me with them on. so all i need is for her to figure out how to load it and send it to me and it'll be all good. i'll post it up. so we're on our way into the theater and i buy a tray of nachos to eat in there and i finished them during previews before the movie even started. this guy came and sat right right to me and he was eatting chinese food. i didn't know we sold chinese food in the theater.
so the movie ended and i heaad for the bathroom with my friend and this lady infront of us lets out the HUGE FART. you guys have to understand that my friend is a VERY BLUNT PERSON. so she bursted out laughing and saying "omg how the hell are you gonna fart out like that in public" we passed on going to the bathroom and just took a drive around town.

all in all it was a great day.

at least i think i am. today at least. i woke up at 7am this morning decided not to go to school again. i'm not a slacker i just really want people to know that. i get good grades in fact the class i'm taking in summer school right now i have an A+ in. that's no lie. i just thought i'd take the days off that i was given to relax. my parenst are gone once again and i actually have plans today oh my word. some friends and i are going to watch the movie s.w.a.t and it better be good or i want my money back. i wish everything was money back gaurunteed. i bet i'd have madd money as of now. well i have to get ready because i wanna head to the mall and buy some more acyrlic paints, some new brushes and a big acyrlic coated painting palett.

like i said. everyone left for vacation and i'm stuck here. i didn't even go to school today because i was too lazy to. i woke up then fell back to sleep. then i went downstairs ate my JELLO and watched some movies. i realized that i was home alone which was rather strange. i fell asleep again then when my dad came back home around 4ish i went to the mall by myself and played non stop video games. i almost beat the new time crisis game. it's a lot harder then the previous version. i got pretty far and i even stirred up an audience. then this dork came up to me and was like "not only are you beautiful but you can kick ass too. you are my kind of girl" i stared at him like get the fuc.k away or i'll loose my concentration. then he started talking to random people behind me that were watching me play saying "that's my kind of girl" i got so fed up that i lost on purpose and left.

i can't stand going anywhere with my friends without money. its all rather sad. actually the saddest part is that none of us have money. sophal is the one who provides us with the ride to go places and she has a credit card. she's the only one with a job too. i really need a job. i'm sick of being broke and having to depend on my parents for money. there's so many things i want that the parents won't buy for me and it makes me sad.